what is this toothpaste doing on my desk?

there's a Colgate tube right beside the keyboard, so that as i am pounding on the keys now, the toothpaste gets into my peripheral vision. im in a rut now, actually. it's been a long day in the office--we had our monthly meeting the whole morning, had this Gender and Development talk after lunch which extended for the rest of the afternoon--now the toothpaste is still here.

it's pay day today and frankly, it doesn't feel it. this morning, i planned to make a list of things to be thankful for, but oh well, yeah, yeah, i know, i know. sigh. thank you God for everything...

sigh.

i still could let out the biggest sigh in the world right now...