ME
by Paula Cole

I am not the person who is singing
I am the silent one inside
I am not the one who laughs at people's jokes I just pacify their egos
I am not my house, my car, my songs
They are only just stops along my way
I am like the winter
I'm a dark cold female
With a golden ring of wisdom in my cave

And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythmn
I am carrying my prayers
But you can't kill my spirit
It's soaring and it's strong
Like a mountain
I'll go on and on
But when my wings are folded
The brightly colored moth
Blends into the dirt into the ground

And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
That I love

I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I'm scared as hell
But I know there's something better
Yes I know there's something
Yes I know, i know, yes i know

That I love
But it's me
And it's me
But it's me

for the roses, the dogs who eat dogs; for the screams in my head, the bruises on my arms; for love, kulas, family and friends

rainbows

when was the last time i saw a rainbow?

some cosmic intervention. just as i was about to write that we always need to have a fresh look at things, tins stretches her hand in front of me, and on her open palm were two white flat-faced marble stones. i chose one and the word "marvel" was written on it. the other stone has "celebrate" on.

it was the perfect stone to keep these days.

hang on
for you

it will be alright. i know you are worried about the days to come but fear no more. i wear hope like garlands of lilies upon my hair.